Imagine being a child overwhelmed by intrusive thoughts about relationships, language, superstitions, behaviors, and philosophies.

That was me, starting at just 10 years old. That was the beginning of my experience with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD). I constantly sought reassurance from family members, friends, and even strangers that I would never act on those unwanted thoughts. My concerns were initially dismissed as typical childhood experiences, allowing the symptoms to worsen over time. I later developed depression, low self-esteem, anger, suicidal thoughts, and homicidal thoughts involving my sister. I also experienced a disabling disconnect from reality that caused confusion and a loss of skills such as simple math and critical thinking. At age 14, an OCD therapist recognized the severity of my condition, diagnosed me with psychosis “not otherwise specified,” and recommended immediate hospitalization. I spent 10 days in inpatient psychiatric care followed by several weeks of outpatient care, causing me to miss about a month of school. I found hospitalization traumatic and isolating, struggled with sensory deprivation and eating, and felt I did not receive the right diagnosis, medication, or support. After leaving the hospital, and for several years, I continued facing psychosis, school-related stress that would cause psychosis episodes, medical appointments, strained family relationships, and isolation. By sharing my story, I hope more children facing mental health disabilities are heard, understood, and supported when they ask for help. Read the full blog, "My Childhood with Mental Health Challenges," on our website at the link in bio.